This is going to be a horny ramble. Don't set you're expectations too high. Denial has turned my brain to horny mush. I know some of you will love this though. On a related note, I don't think i realised that if I'm turned on enough, I start to shake.

Eleven days. Is that all. I was hornypostinf on Reddit, thinking I'd find people to play with and play for a while, set a goal of 2025 for my next orgasm and everyone would stop answering and play over

Oh no, that's not what has happened. I'm going insane. I'm aware I asked for this. I never ever thought I would get here haha. Husband has historically not been interested in denial. This is important and half the reason why this is...like this. I don't submit easily either, I don't trust people haha. If you've read my prior posts you may know what's happening to me at the moment.

I've clicked with someone online and actually handed over control. Which is hot as fuck. We've been having edging games, he's got me to beg to cum and I thought that this was probably what the desperation looked like, I'm just a slut for denial.

I asked to be on no touch over Christmas, thinking that would be easier around family and how hard could it be - when I've played solo I just didn't think about it and it was fiiine. Somehow, because I'm actively not allowed, I can't forget about it. Then my husband joined in. Past posts for info, but I've been edged and fucked every evening, and this morning, and I'm going insane. Add to that someone who has fixtures out which buttons to press and I'm such a fucking mess.

I can feel my clit throbbing and my pussy leaking. Even the friction of moving is doing something for me. It's hard not to moan when my husband touches me and when its sexual I'm just going completely blank and my brain vanishes. This is the most pleasurable hell. I really, really want to cum and I actually want to, I don't just want someone to say no so I can feel the control. I beg now when I'm touched. And I asked for this haha. I'm having the time of my life, but I've been hiding in the kitchen because we have company and I'm such an aroused mess and it won't calm down. I never ever thought I'd beg for anything. Now I suspect I just need a little push (if youre reading this, please disregard the last line 😆)

I don't know when I'll get to touch, but pretty certain I'll be begging for it. I don't know when I'll get to cum either. My head is swimming. Fuck I want to cum. Or touch. Fuck myself into oblivion. I can't think all I can think about is sex. I want to beg, but I don't even know what for. This is the best and the worst thing, all at once. 😖

Writing this has drenched my panties. I just need. Be careful what you wish for, I guess (I'd do it again) I'm so fucked. And more turned on by that than I think I have ever been. I'm usually a mouthy brat that won't beg for anything. I'm just a submissive needy mess now.

Happy Christmas!

Inbox is open. I may take a while to reply given the season. I'm on UK time too.