This is bound to be an interesting post, a bit of a confession, a bit of story, and bit just me telling you guys about something I'm very proud of.

You see, I always wanted to really dwell into my sexuality. Explore it, and live it freely and completely. But I simply just couldn't. It wasn't realistic. I had a career after all, one I loved very much. Besides I couldn't just hang around edging all day, I need to do something impactful with my life to feel good about myself. So there were hurdles in the way of sexualizing myself to the degree I wanted to.

To be clear I always had a degree of bdsm and denial incorporated into my life. Just never quite enough. Until now that is...

I've been working and trying to figure out a way to do this in the past two years.

Since you likely don't know me at all. I'm Matilde, 38 years old. I love being a bit submissive, at least in body. I love denial and being super fucking desperate all day long. I also love pain and just generally being sexualized. Sexual misogyny as I like to call it, being sexualized just because I exist. But, I'm also a rather strong and independent woman, both physically and mentally. I've never been that submissive type. I love to do sports, hunt, I fly gliders and so on. And I don't wish to change any of that. But I did retire from the military after 20 years, and now I can keep dripping all day long if I wanted to... And I do want to.

I managed to find a fully remote part-time job, and got accepted to university as well. Starting m master's in February, online. I'll finally have a couple of years when I'll have no schedule to follow, and all I need to do I will be able to from my home.

Now all I needed is a little refurbishment, and expanding my lovely set of rules - which still is an ongoing process - in order to live m life as sexually as I want to.

• Absolutely no more clothes. I will not wear clothes at all while home, I even turned my garage into a home gm so I can keep my abs all fancy without needing to put on clothes and go to a public gym. I mean I will still occasionally leave to shop or meet up with friends and I'll do my daily 12k run outside as well. But I get to be nude 90% of the day... I'm so fucking excited!
• Absolutely no orgasms. I've been continuously denied for over a year by now. Of course I'll tease and edge myself when needed, but I think I'm ought to expand my denied streak for a couple of years, at least until I finish with my master's degree.
• Plenty of time with clamps on, a couple of sessions with whips and other lovely instruments.
• Wearing my lush or riding my wand as much as I want to... or told to

There are bunch of other small rules and plenty of opportunities of course, and I'll just make shit up as I go.

I just wanted to share that I'm so fucking happy that I get to live my life in such a blatantly sexy way for some time.

I've been literally doing my little naked happy dances all week, while cooking or showering or doing anything really... And to be clear I'm a horrible fucking dancer.

I know that this is not the most sophisticated post, and I'll make a much more organized and better version of it. Less silly and more thought out...

I'm just so fucking happy that I can be the strong independent submissive all day, all week, all year... I just needed to write something.

Well, thank you, and if you ever need a somewhat sophisticated naked, denied and desperately dripping chick with abs to talk to... I might just be our woman going forward! :D