I'm around a week in to my goal to not cum before Christmas. I've been playing with somebody from Reddit and edging (or not touching) as I'm told. I find the fun bit of denial is when the desperation starts to sink in, and it goes from edging because it's enjoyable to actually wanting to cum and being told no.

I've been edging and denying for the last week, and although I've been horny and my clit keeps interrupting my thoughts when I can feel it pulse, I'm still edging for the thrill of denial. Sir has being giving me orders and telling me what to do.

Yesterday lunchtime I was edging for Sir and started to ask to cum. I like to beg, but was still worried he would give up and let me cum as I've had that experience a lot before. When he asked if I wanted to cum I backed down, not actually wanting a yes response. Then I was told that that warranted punishment for doubting he would deny me. I've never had anything much beyond a funishment that was go and put a butt plug in- so this is new territory a little! Part 1 was to be polite and make sure I referred to him a sir (I am a bit of a self proclaimed brat). Part 2 was to wear a plug when doing house chores, which was a very hot idea. Part 3 was doing 50 lines, with one edge every five lines, for a total of 10 edges. My clit throbbed at the thought of edges, although I genuinely hate the thought of lines.

My first response was "oh god I'm going to die" which got another ten lines and two edges added for not referring to sir properly. The enforcement made me feel very very submissive and my clit throbbed at the feeling.

I had to wait a while to get started, and when I did, honestly, I sat looking at the paper wondering if I was going to write lines for someone I'd only ever met online. I want to be a good sub though and the thought of doing punishment because I didn't trust someone to be suitably cruel made me feel very owned and needy.

So I started writing. 5 lines and one edge. It took a while to get there - I think my vibrators had overstimulated my clit a bit. But I edged hard

Another 5 lines and edge 2. It was difficult to pull my hand away but I was trying to hump the vibrator as I pulled it off. I needed to cum

5 lines. Edge 3. Fuck I needed to cum. I was soaking wet and I could feel my clit pulse

5 lines. Edge 4. I seems to be on the edge for a while, but I was so needy and wet and didn't want to stop

5 lines. Edge 5 was harder to get to - my clit was tired, so we agreed I could finish later. As I stopped though, I could feel an insistent pulsing feeling between my legs that just wouldn't die down.

Sir told me to put my plug in while I went about the rest of my day, which made my pussy ache with need and it wanted to be filled but I left it to drip. He told me that he had cum, which made my pussy pulse and drip jealously.

I can't think about much else other than my needy pussy all evening. As soon as I get chance I grab my toys and start to finish my task.

5 more lines. Edge 6. This was such a hard edge and left me soaking wet and throbbing and achy. This was going to be difficult.

5 lines. Edge 7. At some point during this I started to whimper. I could feel how swollen and wet my pussy was and so so sensitive. I needed to cum. I pleaded with sir and he told me to not be ridiculous, this was a punishment. I felt my pussy clench and suddenly get an awful lot wetter. This was going to be hard.

5 lines. Edge 8. I was whimpering all the way through this one and they were coming ten minutes apart from one another. I needed to cum. I begged sir and he said no. As I took my vibrator off my clit my hips bucked trying to maintain contact with the vibrator or hump the chair below me as my pussy throbbed. I was soaking wet

5 lines. Edge 9. I was pleading out loud through an empty room to be allowed to cum. I sent sir a begging message and was told no again. I needed it so so so badly. I whined as I pulled the vibrator away and desperately needed more. I had to sit still, scared moving too much would push me over the edge

5 lines. Edge 10. Begging got me nowhere but my pussy throbbed at every no. I was pleading with an empty room to be allowed. I felt my pussy tense up and soak my underwear even more. I ripped my hands away and sat there moaning in need.

I decided to go upstairs after this for access to the rest of my toy collection, I desperately wanted something inside of me. I fucked myself with a dildo while my clit cooled off a little. I could feel myself clenching around it tightly and if I went a little bit harder my dildo would have made me cum and squirt on the bed. I left it to fill me up while i finished

5 more lines. Edge 11. I did this one on my hands and knees enjoying feeling so exposed. I was grinding my pussy against the vibrator. As I edged I took the vibrator off and felt my pussy run down my legs as I tried to hump the air and whined

5 more lines. The last edge, number 12. I was whimpering and pleading to cum both in real life and over message to be told no. As I pulled the vibrator away from my throbbing clit I moaned - even pulling it away was almost enough stimulation to go over the edge. My pussy was on fire with need. I was soaking wet and my clit was throbbing and desperate. I fucked myself with my dildo, but that just made me wetter. I collapsed and noticed I was shaking with need. I think this was the most intense edging session I have ever experienced. I sent sir a message thanking him for denying me and punishing me.

I had to go to bed after that and I have had a night filled with filthy filthy dreams. I woke up this morning with a throbbing wet needy pussy. Typing this out and thinking about it again has made me so needy and drippy. The next few weeks are going to be hard. I haven't touched myself yet today and I'm already a soaking wet mess. Thank you sir for denying me so well.

(My inbox is open, but I might not be able to answer straight away! Teases, filthy messages etc are all welcome and will give me fuel to edge to haha. I do have a kink list linked in my profile, but I broadly just like people being mean to me. I get serious orgasm envy and I enjoy people letting me know they enjoy my suffering - so let me know if I helped you cum.or edge please!)