As of today I've been denied 13 days, I had an orgasm on November 30th, 2024, after starting the first went a full 7 days denied, had 2 separate edging sessions on the 8th, spent 2 more days on no touch and have been edging myself whenever I have free time essentially. My partner doesn't really acknowledge my orgasm denial kink in the ways I need him too and no living soul other than myself has made me cum, so I use orgasm denial to not only make it easier for him (hasn't worked yet but I try) but also just because I like it. Right now mentally I say to myself "if he makes me cum, great, if he doesn't also great" and I do feel that way, but I also just wish I could turn orgasms off in my brain. I feel so slutty admitting this, but I'd rather stay in the pink fog, I want to always feel on the brink of dropping to my knees with my tongue out to beg for cock because pleasuring someone else helps take the need to be touched away. I am to large weight wise for a thick (not cord) chastity belt, and am steadily working on weight loss for that and hope to someday be able to lock myself in or someone do it for me and essentially lose the keys. I practice mental chastity if you wish, and being on penetrative denial is something I already practice. I genuinely cannot remember the last time i had anything in my pussy. I'm already anal and oral only, so now I just want the "jewelery" to complete the look I feel inside. I love being denied and I really never want it to end. I enjoy begging for an orgasm because it's what my body "wants" but I neeeeed the other person to say no. I want to be a permanently denied horny slave. I want to pleasure cock like my life depends on it and find vicarious pleasure from the orgasms of others. I think about ruining my orgasm now ans then, ruined orgasms are my second biggest kink, but I'm afraid of losing to much of the fervent lust I've been creating. I'm just a horny bitch in heat whose going to go back to edging, with no ruins even tho theyre so sexy, and no full orgasms because I want to be the best good girl i can be and good girls never cum. if anyone wishes to chat, my DMs are always open!