[cw: peeing mention, chemical play]

Currently attempting NNN for the first time! I’ve done over 4 weeks denial before just not in November haha but typically I do 1-3 weeks denial so it’ll still be a challenge.

I’ve just finished my finals for university (yay!) and I’ve been going feral wanting to have a proper “self care” session. On Tuesday I finally had a a few hours free and home alone!

I started off by working myself up. I teased myself with my wand vibrator on low over my undies. I slowly upped to vibrations until I was wet and swollen. I didn’t need any lube to stuff my hole with my smaller pussy plug (4” long, 5” circumference). I then kept edging for a while, I’m very experienced edging so I can do it over and over again basically indefinitely. I think this time I went for about an hour straight?

At some point I switched out for my larger pussy plug (4 1/8” long, 6” circumference). My bigger plug felt so fucking good as it puts constant pressure on my g-spot, but it also puts pressure on my bladder which got more intense as time went on. I’m not huge into watersports but I do like the painplay/humiliation aspect of being made to hold it. I’ve played around with doms telling me if/when I’m allowed to pee. I was really enjoying that feeling and imagining being told firmly that I’m not allowed to cum OR pee, I have to hold it all in like a good slut.

Eventually I decided if I was only allowed to pee if I humiliated myself in the process. So I went to the bathroom and squatted in the shower, still plugged and edging with the vibe on my clit. I filmed myself trying to pee, whining and shaking cos I was so close to cumming the whole time. Sadly I couldn’t pee with the plug in, but as soon as I pushed it out I sprayed everywhere. I was being so good so I definitely didn’t cum, but just finally peeing while keeping the stimulation on my clit felt insane.

Even after all of that I was still super super horny. I cleaned up and went back to my room. I put my big plug back in and lay on my tummy, holding my wand up behind me so I had to raise my hips to rub my cunt against it. I upped the challenge by frog tying my legs, which made me feel so deliciously helpless and desperate.

I was on a knife’s edge and even a second of vibration was enough to almost push me over. So I decided I needed some “alternative stimulation” to calm myself down.

With my legs still tied and my pussy still stuffed full, I rubbed Tiger Balm all around my clit, especially on the head. I then cuffed my wrists to my collar so I was completely helpless as it began to burn. Tiger balm is a good entry to chemical play I think cos the pain peaks pretty quickly before tapering off, and it’s overall not as intense sensation for me at least. I did two rounds of Tiger balm, the second time I I put my wand back on my clit to get a crazy combination of pleasure and pain.

The painplay and last round of edging finally wore me out haha. Without an orgasm I was definitely still horny but I definitely took the edge off at least. I untied myself and had a shower, the warming sensation from the Tiger balm lingered for a while though.

If you made it here I hope you enjoyed this long ass post. Writing these journals actually helps me manage my denial plus it’s fun to have a record 🥰

Happy first week of NNN everyone!