hello everyone!

sorry, this post might be a bit long. 🥹

i’ll start by introducing myself. i’m a 24-year-old french girl (so please excuse my english—it’s far from perfect). i’m very shy and reserved, so it takes a lot of courage for me to post here. i struggle with anxiety, and my mental health is quite up and down. in short, i’m definitely not an easy person… i lack self-confidence and have a hard time with how I see myself, both physically and mentally.

i sadly went through something traumatic when i was younger (sexual abuse) which damaged my self-confidence. i'm still a virgin and really have no experience other than masturbation.

i’m sharing this (and it’s hard for me to do) as i want to change my relationship with my body. i love masturbating, and i do it often. but it always feel strange afterward because i feel so bad once i reach an orgasm. it feels good for a tiny bit of time, but than i climax and i just feel so disgusted, ashamed, sad and dirty.

which is probably because of my traumas.

i started reading on reddit about certain practices (edging, denial, and then submission in general). it made me realize that i should get some help from someone sweet and caring willing to gently guide someone. i tried to stop myself from cumming before reaching the climax— and it was really cool, i enjoyed the frustration and the feeling of being needy but i couldn’t last more than a couple (two) days. pretty disappointing.

that’s why i’d like the support of someone experienced in this area—someone patient who can guide me in exploring my desires. there's a part of me that i want to get to know, and that part of me wants to be submissive.

here are my criteria (so if you see yourself in these, feel free to message me so we can talk):

• you are close to my age (25-35). 
• you can praise me and gently guide me during my discovering journey.
• you don’t want to control my life and you understand that i’m not 24/24 available. 

i want to be clear that i’m specifically looking for someone gentle, treating me nicely and praising me. sweet words are very welcome! slutty things like degradation could happen latter.

for your information, i don’t really know what my kinks are yet since i’m just starting out, which is actually great because it means i’m open to trying almost anything with you. so far, i can only say that my limits are: scat, blood, permanent physical injury, risk, and photos/nudes (the last one is debatable but i will never send too much for my own safety/privacy).

i’d also like to clarify that i’m not interested at all in someone wanting to take control of my life right now. i’m not ready for that. i really just want companionship bc i feel lonely.🥹

thank you so much for reading! i look forward to hearing from you so i can share a bit more about myself and answer any questions you might have.

if you send me a message, can you please introduce yourself and tell me why you think you are the good one for me? also! so i know you read all of this…what’s your favorite taylor swift song? :D

(i won’t share my first name, but feel free to give me a pet name of your choice.)

see you soon. ❤️‍🩹