hello everyone!

sorry, this post might be a bit long. 🥹

i’ll start by introducing myself. i’m a 24-year-old french girl (so please excuse my english—it’s far from perfect). i’m very shy and reserved, so it takes a lot of courage for me to post here. i struggle with anxiety, and my mental health is quite up and down. in short, I’m definitely not an easy person… i lack self-confidence and have a hard time with how I see myself, both physically and mentally.

i sadly went through something traumatic when i was younger (sexual abuse) which damaged my self-confidence. i'm still a virgin and really have no experience other than masturbation.

i’m sharing this (and it’s hard for me to do) bc i want to change my relationship with my body. i really love masturbating, and i do it often. but it always feel strange afterward because i feel so bad once i reach an orgasm. it feels good for a tiny bit of time, but the i climax and i just feel so disgusted, ashamed, sad and dirty.

so I started reading on reddit about certain practices (edging, denial, and then submission in general). i tried to stop myself from cumming before reaching the climax— and it was really cool, i enjoyed the frustration and the feeling of “endless” pleasure. but i couldn’t last more than a couple (two) days. pretty disappointing.

that’s why i’d like the support of someone experienced in this area—someone patient who can guide me in exploring my desires. there's a part of me that i want to get to know, and that part of me wants to be submissive.

here are my criteria (so if you see yourself in these, feel free to message me so we can talk):

• you’re a woman! i feel more comfortable with that.
• you’re gentle, patient, but also firm when needed.
• you enjoy helping beginners explore their sexuality.
• you’re open-minded.

i want to be clear that i’m specifically looking for a woman, not a man, and if possible, i’d like to do a verification just to be sure. i’m also willing to do one myself if needed (no problem).

i don’t really know what my kinks are yet since Ii’m just starting out, which is actually great because it means i’m open to trying almost anything with you. so far, i can only say that my limits are: scat, blood, permanent physical injury, risk, and photos (the last one is debatable).

i’d also like to clarify that i’m not interested at all in someone wanting to take control of my life right now. i’m not ready for that. i really just want companionship bc i feel lonely.🥹

thank you so much for reading! i look forward to hearing from you so i can share a bit more about myself and answer any questions you might have.

(i won’t share my first name, but feel free to give me a pet name of your choice.)

see ya. ❤️‍🩹