I have been denied a total of 5 days now.

For the last 2 days I have had a new rule, I must hold a dildo inside me without moving it or touching myself for 15 minutes while I watch my favourite lesbian porn. This is the only stimulation I'm allowed.

The goal is to condition me to accept pleasure from penetration alone which I have never been able to do.

The first time was uncomfortable to start but quickly became enjoyable. The second time was even better and I didn't want to remove the dildo.

The third time was enjoyable, but slightly uncomfortable when I clenched around the dildo, until it suddenly wasn't. I didn't have the discipline to remove it right on time and when I did I had to immediately grab the headboard so I couldn't fuck myself, I was so desperate and writhing and moaning in my bed.

Part of me wonders how far I can take this, and part of me is so desperate to cum I don't care.

FTM 28 (He/Him)