For most of this month I (ftm) have been rolling a d20 each day to determine if/how I'm allowed to touch, the metric is this

1: No touch skip next days roll 2-4: No touch 5 : Allowed to fuck my ass 10 : Allowed to fuck my pussy 15 : Allowed to touch my cock 20: Allowed to orgasm

Here are the numbers I've rolled each day so far (the Xs are just there to mark that I wasn't doing this little game yet). It's been almost 2 weeks since I started and, I think, 16 days since I last came. Today I woke up hard as fuck and wanted very badly to rub my cock, but I couldn't, so I just humped the air like a desperate loser and stroked my outer lips till i was soaked (so like, after a minute. It really doesn't take much lately) I got up and ate but now I'm back in bed, stuffing and fucking my pussy with one of my big plugs. It's not how I'd prefer to masturbate, and I can't cum from penetration so I'm not even edging, but I really feel like I need something, so here I am. I really hope my girlfriend plays with me when she gets home, recently she's been using the magic wand on me and making me bark like a dog to turn it off when I get close, and that sounds like heaven right now.

Anyway, I think I'm gonna go clean up and try to go about my day. Maybe I'll start posting updates here? Idk