The effect that denial and edging have been having on me is incredible. My brain is all mushy, I'm basically doing involuntary kegels constantly, I'm wet and throbbing every half hour and it feels like the longer I go and the more often I edge myself, the hungrier this thing in my lower stomach gets.

The sensation, as best I can describe it, is almost like my womb itself is desperate. I'm usually not aware of it, sitting in my pelvis, and it makes no sense because the last thing I want is to get pregnant...but it is vibrating, sending signals everywhere lower saying something needs to go in, to fill me, to flood me.

It aches.

It feels amazing.

I'm going to edge again tonight, I know it.