If anyone remembers me, I was the girl a few weeks/months ago (honestly can't remember now) who said that I couldn't cum without my clit. In that post, I detailed how I had tried and failed to cum in a variety of ways, including vaginally.

Well, I was proven wrong last night, and I don't know how to feel. Maybe it was because of months of denial, or because of the hypnosis involved, but I had a wonderful person hypnotizing me, making me as close as possible (no clit stimulation included) and I was fucking my horse dildo. And I came. I didn't even recognize it as an orgasm. It didn't feel the same, it wasn't the same pleasure wrecking, mind numbing release it is with my clit. It just felt like another edge, super hard against the edge and I just had to stop.

Afterwards, I felt drained and tired and exhausted. And I didn't realize why, until I was talking with my hubby, who said that was how I got after an orgasm back before I was denied. He used to eat me out all the time to earth-shaking orgasms, so he would know best. I'd forgotten about feeling that way honestly.

The hypnotists was the one who suggested I had a vaginal orgasm. That, or it was ruined. But, as I've never experienced either before, I can't be sure.

Whether it was ruined or vaginal, it was an orgasm, which I didn't think possible. And now my denial streak is over. I'm still so very horny, but there's an undercurrent of post but clarity (which isn't exactly what I'm feeling, but the best way to describe it without taking up an entire reddit post in itself) that makes me question things.

Anyway, if I vanish for a bit, it's probably because of this. Sorry if I ghost you because of it. I just need to think about things...