i think im primarily talking to the women in this sub that participate in this kink. this post is probably a bit different than my usual. usually im pretty self assured and confident when it comes to my kinks. lately, though, ive been just feeling a little... blah.

like, for perspective: it's been 100 days exactly since my last orgasm. between then and now, there's been 395 edges. this should feel like a milestone for me! this is the longest ive ever been denied! wow! except this feels less like crossing the finish line at a marathon and more like dragging myself to the top of a mountain - like one big, tiring slog.

i feel like i should take a break. im not completely turned off of the kink, but it's less fun now, and it's getting increasingly harder (not in a fun way) to stay away from the edge. ive been insanely jealous of girls that get to have screaming orgasms lately. but ive tied up so much of my kinky self in the idea that "good girls don't come" that having an orgasm sounds like a bad idea... except there's a very practical, very sexy side of myself that says an orgasm (or five) is the reset button that im craving.

i feel stuck. not quite in a rut. more like in a mud puddle. i don't know, any advice?