On August 2nd yours truly will finally hit one year of denial with (almost) daily edging (on periods and dry spells I obviously didn’t edge). This post will have 2 modes, the fantasy and the reality.

Honestly this year has been fantastic for me. I really enjoy the feeling of being denied and being told no, much more than orgasms to be honest. I’ve found this to genuinely be pretty fulfilling and in a weird way being in these kinds of spaces has helped me through some personal trauma. I think I’m going to keep going with my denial (as if I really has a ‘choice’ haha) and see just how deep this desperation and depravity takes me, and I hope you’re all willing to make it “worse” for me ;)

Enough serious talk lol. In the realm of fantasy I would love it if I was never allowed to cum again, cursed to forever edge without any relief. I hope my pussy gets more swollen and drippy and desperate for any attention. I want my clit to be big, fat, and needy, I want to ache every second of every day. I love being forced to feel my soaked panties press against me when I get wet in public.

If you’ve done the math, yes I stopped letting myself cum just before I turned 19, and yes I am still a virgin.

I think it would be incredibly hot for men and women to bully me for denying myself. To make fun of me for being a pathetic, desperate goonette who gets off to edging and denying her swollen pussy. For being a virgin who will never get the chance to cum. Being taken to some sort of club, stripped down and forced to show off my dripping wet and swollen pussy. Multiple people using my face, tits, and ass however they like while they rub my clit till it’s raw, spanking and edging me over and over and over.

That’s not even getting into my hucow fantasies. Being a denied lactating hucow with swollen breasts and nipples, my milk being built up until I can’t take it anymore, it’s all so fucking hot to me. I want my udders to fill with milk until they're swollen and sore. Then I get hooked up to a milking station and only get gentle, teasing pulls to my teats. My milk dribbling out at an agonizingly slow pace, denying me any real relief from the accumulated pressure. My sensitive udders enjoy the stimulation and my poor, denied pussy is dripping wet. I beg for something, any kind of substantial stimulation but I’m just denied over and over.

All this to say, feel free to message me to make my possibly permanent denial worse.