today has been a lot. my hands are shaking so bad im having trouble typing im sorry if this is incorhwrent im actually losing my fucking mind.

so my friend instructed me that today im not touching my clit. it’s too greedy and desperate and it needs to throb more. i need to NEED it not want it. she said i can get my clit privilege back on new years.

so i was instructed to take my favorite dildo, suction it to my chair and sit on it. i cannot touch my clit, i cannot fuck myself. i just. am sitting on it. rocking on it.

i’ve been watching videos of women cumming. squirting. getting their clits rubbed. watching this has left me in a puddle. it’s dripped to the floor it’s so bad i’ve never been this wet in my life.

and my dildo is just sat inside me. anytime i grind forward it like. it RUBS and it grinds inside and i see stars and i get so so so fucking close but i can’t cum that way so it’s just useless and these women keep moaning and cumming and i’m just.

i just got drool on my phone.

help i don’t. my brain can’t function it’s just leaking out of me. i was instructed to ask for help and I need porn sent to me. cocks. anything. please im going insane i can’t. do anything but rock and rock and rock and i