TLDR: What are ways you can enjoy making/distributing content while feeling inferior?

So, I sometimes get really severe episodes of feeling irrelevant, useless, and unwanted. Recently, a loved one said I should post here. Despite being an average-looking, 34yr trans woman(not femboy). And I gave it a shot.

The reception was beyond incredible!(for me) Im used to getting maybe a handful of ppl interested after several days but I got so many that I actually felt liked and appreciated.

I don't record pics or video really anymore. So, I was just going to sift through what I consider "the best" and post it sporadically at times until I no longer have any to share.

Using what I feel is arguably better pics than the first time, it was completely different in terms of interest. Did people not like my jokes? Or my pics? Were they just being nice on my first post? I don't know. I didnt really think much of it til I had to hop on Reddit on my pc and saw a recommended post and I realized just how laughably meager my percieved appreciation by the community truly is.

I was so excited to post more and maybe videos, too, but after that, I feel like no one actually likes em and...

I enjoyed myself posting fandubs/reads and just getting a couple looks maybe, if any, since it was my page only. Because I feel "special" with my voice, even if theres nothing great about it. I look at myself and I feel like people are upset that im here in the first place..

"What? She's 34 and trying to post?! Gross!" "Why is a woman posting pics in r/Femboys? That's so desperate and sad!" Etc.

Has anyone here had similar worries? And if so, how did you combat feelings of inferiority?

Thank you in advance.