Hi, any advice are appreciated if it's possible out of this not really making sense rant/vent.... Kinda at my wit's end after trying to come up with something, anything for two tweeks and get like... Nada.. I've been writing off and on for almost twenty years now and am no stranger to the famous "writer's block", but this time it feels different. I binged a TV series two weeks ago and have been stuck in the universe since, practically inhaling every video edit and fanfic I can get my hands on (both in English and it's original language). The relationship dynamic between the main characters hit me hard and I'm not over it. Usually I write to get out, but I can't come up with ideas no matter how hard I try. I see one of the characters entirely opposite than how most of fandom see him and would like to write from that POV, but somehow I end up staring at whatever media I'm trying to write on, mind completely blank. I also wanted to write a darker version of him, but it is complicated by the fact that he has a twin who is already dark. The couple didn't have a happy ending and I keep wanting to write fix-it endings for them but I also think deep down I think the ending they got is the only possible outcome (a perfect imperfect ending so to speak) if you consider the story arch and their personalities.

Am I too close to it? I can't re-watch the ending, like at all. And if I'm not prepared when a fan edit throws it at me I'm out for hours after that.

In comparison, I have several ideas for another fandom of which I haven't finished a single episode. And I am editing several other stories for a third fandom. I've written CODA fics, one-shots, chaptered. AU stories. I have a crossover idea sitting there waiting to be fleshed out. Sometimes I have to push through in order not to abandon my stories but I think we all got moments like that. I get my plot bunnies from quotes, songs, etc. So clearly writing and idea generating itself is not the problem.

It feels like it's just this fandom I'm stuck, but it's the one I really really want to write in. People who know me tell me I'm overthinking this. Knowing myself I probably am, but I don't know how to stop. I know that one of the reasons to write fanfic is that you can do almost anything you want, and I'm probably limiting myself too much?