My dad wasn't in my life growing up. He has alcoholism and traumatic brain injury and he physically abused my mom, so she divorced him. I didn't get to have a Dad. I deserved a Dad, and I still do. I hope to marry some day and have a father in law, but I'm still single. I'm 31. I tried to reconnect with my Dad in my early 20s, but he was still a drunk, so I cut him off.

I turned out mostly alright. I make good money actually, I don't need money. I just want a positive male role model to talk to, be proud of me, ask me if my boyfriend is good enough for me. I have mentors, friends, mentees. I volunteer. I'm involved in my community. I want to be a foster parent someday and help kids who feel broken heal. I felt broken as a kid. Why wasn't I enough for my Dad to stop drinking?

I went to college, did well, have had professional success. I love animals and nature. I play volleyball and cycle. I love to read and learn. I'm proud of myself for the person I've become. But I feel this hole. This hurt. I wonder if having a male mentor or an internet Dad might help. I could be the internet daughter you always wanted.

Thanks.