i've been talking to another redditor, and he's been giving me instructions to help me along in remembering that i'm a woman. the other day he had me repeat "I am Elizabeth, I am a woman, I was made to be fucked and filled. My only purpose in life is to get bred by real man" in front of a mirror over and over while rubbing my clit until i wasn't thinking about the words anymore.

it was scary how fast it happened. how fast i stopped thinking about anything that i was saying. how fast i fell into this trancelike state where all i could do was repeat the words and rub my aching clit.

after a while, i have no idea how long, i felt my womb actually start to ache. maybe it was placebo, maybe it was the words getting to me, but no matter what i knew in that moment that all i needed to be happy in life was to be bred and knocked up.

i'm back to my silly boy ways for now, but i think this is a step in the right direction.