So for context, I've been on T (26mg 1x week, IM, low to mid 200's ng/dl) for 3 months now, 2 years ago I was on 25mg for 2 months before I quit. I've been intentional with keeping the dose low to slow down my masculinization and cultivate a more masculine/well rounded voice by the end.

Anyhow, I met up with an old friend (nonbinary) of mine and they introduced me to their family members. Prior to introducing me, they told them that I was a friend that they had met in middle school although we had actually met through an online TV show forum. It sounded less sketchier so I went along with it.

Anyways, I met their aunt, cousin, and the cousin's wife and all is well and fine. After I left I thought to myself that I left a good impression to them. But, later that night I get a text from my friend saying that we need to talk. No context. I got extremely nervous but I said lright and set a time for the day after for us to call each other.

Tomorrow came, I nervously grabbed the phone to ask them what disallowed them to give me any sort of context. They then explained to me the event that ensued between them and their cousin's wife after meeting me.

Apparently, the wife expected to see a woman considering that my friend went to an all-girls middle school, but I came in. She heard my voice, saw my face, observed my interactions and thought that I was a cis guy! Somehow me having clear skin added onto her confusion because men apprarently don't have clear skin? Ha. So, she kept pressing my friend on how they met a guy-friend at school. Because of that, my friend had to fess up and tell the wife that I was trans. Thankfully she was cool about it.

Technically, yes, I was outed. But, I didn't mind considering that they had already previously asked if they could disclose it to their cousin.

Right now I'm feeling a mixture of happiness, extreme confusion, and shock at the same time. I didn't expect to pass at all right now. I have long hair that slightly passes my shoulders, my face hasn't masculinized that much, and my voice is not objectively deep. I don't know how I appeared in her eyes, but I'm quite happy about it.

Anyways, that's my W for this month.

[Additional Journaling] I've lowered my dose to 14mg this week but I'll lower it down to 10mg next week to get at 100- ng/dl. I want to do my best to be able to mimick puberty and go low and slow with transitioning my voice. I don't care all too much about "passing" in presentation at this stage of my transition ever since I got top surgery. However, the tone, quality, and pitch of my voice is a higher priority. Hope everything works out for me!