I’m 35F. The past 2 years have been horrific. I lost my father (who was my best friend) and then discovered that my seemingly sweet, geeky, dependable ex-husband cheated on me while I was in depression after my dad’s death. I also burnt out at my high stress job. I’m an introvert and an only child; with my dad and husband gone, I lack a support system. And now that I just quit my job there is nothing anchoring me at home.

I’ve gone to therapy and my mental health has greatly improved but I have a yearning to take a break from my life. I feel like I’ve ‘lived’ so little. I’ve only dated one man, barely travelled or partied, worked in a job I resented because it paid decently (not obscenely) well. I feel like my life is mundane and I’m a bit well, boring myself.

I inherited $11M after my dad passed and have around $1M of my own savings. I have this strong compulsion to go on an incredible, no expense spared around the world trip for 2 years and compensate for the years I’ve missed out on.

My trip would comprise: 1. business class flights 2. 5 star serviced apartments for long stays in some of the world’s coolest cities 3. Personal instructors to intensively teach me a new skill (tango, paragliding, Thai cooking) in each city 4. Visits to a few bucket-list wildlife/ adventure lodges in places like Patagonia and Rwanda for my mom and me 5. VIP passes and lodgings to a few bucket-list festivals for a friend and me 6. Personal styling/ shopping days in chic cities

I’ve done the math and the trip will cost me around $1 million. I plan to break it into chunks with 3-4 months of travel at a time, followed by 1-2 months at home to spend time with my mom. I’ll only be gone for 60% of the time and shouldn’t get travel fatigue.

I see some comments about how FAT can get in the way of meaningful connections: fair enough! My idea is that I will spoil myself with luxury accommodation and fast track my learning with top notch private lessons. But then I’ll plan enough social opportunities such as going to regular Tango nights, going to a non-FAT adventure sports skill camp etc.

I feel like it would be a life changing and rejuvenating experience but I also feel like I’m crazy for spending a significant portion of my NW and taking an extended career break (fairly confident I can explain it and get back on the ladder though). Tell me I’m crazy?