I do. I try so hard to be nice to them, yet they treat me so bad over calls that I'm just getting sick of them. To point out that I'm alone would be of little help here, but to explain how I live alone with my dog, no friends, no job due to disability, meaning my own interaction with others is to talk when I'm at the store or with my parents or brother.

So, I call my Dad and say what are you doing, Hi, how are you? Friendly comments, questions and what not. Most times he just responds angrily that he's at work. What do you think I'm doing? Hangs up. Try my Mom some times and same greetings given by me. She says, what do you want? Or I'm busy. I try to be nice with these calls to basically have someone to talk to for a minute and you can tell they don't want me on the call with them. My brother I don't bother calling, he will say how much he hates me for bugging my parents or that I need a job.

I won't get into my disability, but I can't work a regular job due to physical limitations that limit what I can do. I'm currently developing a nonprofit though for others that are having difficulties with mental issues or physical problems. I have a website and Facebook, Twitter, Instagram that I just started up. Previously I started with doing the 501(c)3 last year and let that lapse because things got in the way, needed to do different approaches and so on. This time I'm going to promote it prior to legalizing, raise some capitol, few grand to pay for nonprofit status and go from there.

In the end I want to give a few people that can't on their own do something fun. Go to a baseball game, amusement park, visit relatives far away and help them achieve these goals or dreams of theirs. Maybe I'm being selfish with this nonprofit because I want to participate in helping others by thinking I might make a few friends, keep busy, but I think the good will outweigh those selfish ambitions.

Anyway, back to why I hate my family, or starting to. Whenever I try to talk with them they don't have time, will berate or yell at me and treat me horribly over the phone. I honestly should have stopped trying a long time ago to make friends with them, but it's hard when you have no other way of talking to others unless you're lucky in the future to make a friend or meet a girl. I stop for a few days then call them and say hi. Get yelled at and repeat. I can tell they hate me, but they won't say that. To them their great parents and I'm a failure. Not considering that I'm disabled with very limited resources. So, going and doing new stuff at the moment is not an option.

I could continue, but this is enough for now. I guess my best bet is to pour my energy into my nonprofit and help others. No one is going to be there for me, but maybe if done right, I can have someone be there for others.