I really think people really don't acknowledge or understand the mental trauma that perpetual loneliness can cause...For example I am spending another Xmas and new years alone. It's such a normal occasion for most but here I am sitting at home with no friends, no SO, and no social life whatsoever...I really think it's understated the damage that one occurs when being an FA, let alone being FA for a really long time...I'm pretty sure there isn't much that can fix me at this point. I could press a magical button right now as we speak to give me a completely different life circumstance wise, but if I had to keep this same brain, I'd probably still deal with all the trauma that has happened throughout my time in this life. I honestly feel like I've become more deranged by the year