For those of you who still are Christians, (I think there are some here), what books were helpful for you to try and sort this out?

I’m struggling with what seems to be the prevailing mentality that Christianity == Republican political views, complementarianism, and a disdain for honoring someone’s preferred pronouns. I was raised in the Baptist church.

My church just got done with a “wisdom for life” series and given that I’m a woman who enjoys her full time job, sends her kids to public school, and will vote entirely Democratic Party, I’m questioning whether I can continue to call myself a Christian. Because by the standards laid out over the last few months, I can either leave the church or continue to change the subject when someone new asks how my kids are educated. And sweep under doubts about the inerrancy of the Bible in the context of history and culture given that the earth is old, science exists, etc.

I’m not ready to say God doesn’t exist, but I don’t know how to reconcile all this.