Ok so let me preface this whole story by saying, im 25 years oldI'm married for 5 years and 2 nights ago I was watching sissy porn, everything was fine, but something felt different, I watch and I jerk off every night, but this was different, I had a feeling in my heart, I was gonna finger my ass! It's the first time l've EVER had my ass penetrated, and I was able to get to 2 fingers, as I was fingering my boipussy, I was still rubbing my clit, finally when my fingers went knuckle deep, something change, I SWEAR for a split second I saw nothing) but fuzzy colors in my eyes, like I have dieectly hit my nerves, now every night I jerk off quietly, as my wife and family are sleeping, thank god I went into the garage that night, because i suddenly started moaning and whimpering uncontrollably. Even after I noticed it, I kept moaning, I have zero control or awareness of what was happening to my body, finally, but all in the same flash of maybe 2 seconds, my cock starts bulgin and pulsing something intense, more intense than any other orgasm I have ever felt, I shoot a.load out of my bulging cock SOOO HARD that my load slams into my own chin and goes above my head, that feeling, hell better than anything, I had a pretty big partier history and l've used most recreational and party drugs... but that 2-3 seconds Of pure energy and ecstasy was a better high and euphoria than anything I'd ever experienced. After I was finished I stayed sitting on the garage floor for about 30 minutes, my heart and energy needed to relax and after a minute to relax, I stand up, noticing my eyes are watery, I grab a towel and clean off my junk and my chin and face, I even have to do a little jump to clean a bit of my load off the ceiling. Now my big concern is I've been masturbating multiple times since this incident, l've tried to watch porn last night and tonight, but my clit won't even get stiff, let alone come to anything even approaching an orgasm, l'm nervous, and now l've gone 2 days without release and I'm getting extra horny, in a desperate attempt to get off again, hust to feel some sexual pleasure, I desperately used my 2 fingers and i penetrated my sis'sy hole again, and it felt good in the moment but it still didn't make r hard, it doesn't make me cum. does anyone have any V advice to help me relive myself?