I have always been an under supplier. My son was not able to gain enough weight from breast feeding alone so I had to start pumping within the first month or two. I was pumping about 6-7 times a day but even then would only get 16oz max. That slowly dropped to 5 pumps a day due to returning back to work. My baby wakes once per night so last month I went down to 4 ppd because he doesn’t wake up too much at night so there was no point to be up. I’m so upset that this journey didn’t end up the way I wanted (wanted 6m the- 1 year). I realized I was pumping for an hour and 20 minutes a day for 8 oz of milk and that just doesn’t seem feasible to keep doing for that amount. Yesterday I went 12 hours between pumps because I couldn’t find the time during working to do it as it’s a new job and I got a lot on my desk yesterday. I also barely drink 40oznof water a day and don’t eat extra calories but I don’t even have the time to do more than that. I just don’t think this is feasible for a working full time mom in social work. I have DMER with pumping so I knew it would be bad if I pumped after it being so long between pumps and I decided to wait as long as I can between pumps. I got about 12 hours between pumps before I pump to relieve. Even since yesterday I only make 3 ounces in a 17 hour gap. I’m so sad I wasn’t able to produce enough milk like many others. I have 150 oz in the freezer to slowly wean him off breast milk. I just feel sad and depressed about this whole thing.