I want to start this off by acknowledging that I was luckier than most: my foster parents truly did try their best, and I love them for it. That being said.. I was reading back through things, including direct quotes from my case manager, and old reports that I never really looked at, and it just kind of dawned on me that they had no right to keep me from my siblings...they just didn't want to fight with my mother, and decided that, since I was refusing reunification, I wasn't worth the effort. They told the court that I was uninterested in maintaining a relationship with my siblings, which couldn't have been further from the truth...I spent so much time crying over not being able to see them, they were the only ones I wanted to see. I could have had a relationship with them still. I could have one today, beyond sending money, but there's been so much time passed... I don't think anything could ever fix that. I love my ex foster parents, but I'm angry that they didn't advocate harder for my right to see my siblings, that my case manager didn't, and that I was told their hands were tied when that simply wasn't true.

Did anyone else experience anything similar?