I feel bad for feeling this. But all I did was love her, and do everything to make her happy. I would even set aside my needs just to buy the things she wanted even if she did not ask me to. I was so willing to do everything for her and with her.

All I wanted was to be heard and to be hugged when they hurt me. But why am I always being punished?

I wish I'd wake up without any memory of her, of us. I wish I'd forget everything. I wish I can stop breaking down. I just want to run away and be alone. I just want to be okay.

Despite this anger, I know that deep inside I am just trying to cover up the pain.

I wish all of us here would heal from everything. I look forward to a healed version of ourselves. Cheers everyone! Thank you for being here with me.