Please do read the whole story. We were in a relationship for 1.5 years since from January 2023 till June 2024. Although we broke up multiple times he initiated breakups everytime but I was the one saving it every single time. So on June 29 he broke up with me for a small issue which was fixable. I begged and cried the whole night for him to stay but he still left anyhow and broke me completely. He blocked me completely for 5 days. Then after one week he said he wants friendship only but it was painful for me as he was already on dating apps and making new friends. I declined the offer and went no contact. So from july to December I broke no contact multiple times Still got the same response he wanted friendships only and told me he moved on doesn't have any feelings for me and doesn't love me anymore. Gosh I was so heartbroken and depressed at that time I had no one. But he was happy with his new friends. Then again on 9 January new year texted him I missed him although I was blocked from everywhere he called back and said he's in relationship with someone new. Said his new partner is so perfect. And he loved his new partner so much. I got weak and cried infront of him to take me back. After that he shared their engagement rings. Gosh it was a such get wrenching moment for me. I was depressed again. Cried till 4 am. My eyes swollen in a very bad day. Texted him like multiple times didn't got any reply. I was in hell. He told me don't come between us. Then on 25 January i.e yesterday he texted me suddenly on morning said to call me back but I didn't respond. After few hours he texted he's in a accident needs some help . I called back he cried so much he's was sorry for hell he have put me through. And said he's new relationship ended and talked real shitty things about his new partner. Although I knew from the very beginning he was afraid to be alone. So looked for a rebound or he monkey branched. Yesterday he told me he want to try us again slowly. But I was really angry with him said mean things to him. I called him selfish, mean, and also said you're using me to move on from your new patner. But now he's saying he loves me made the biggest mistake of his life. Said his heart is paining and I wanted to hug me and cry it all out. He wants to meet me his house. But I'm really scared. I loved him so much and I still do he was my first boyfriend. And today his saying please stay in contact we should be friends asked me support in his career and he will support me as well and right now he needs some love and care . But when I needed him the most he wasn't there. Will it difficult If I ask for relationship again ? I do want him just like before but he fucking messed from everywhere hooked up with multiple peoples too to get away from the breakup pain. I just don't know what to do. Now he might be having a emotional meltdown and once he get strong he might again treat me like shit so I'm really scared but he said he will make some good promises once we meet. He's calling me on 27 January at his home. I'm a very sensitive person I will react out badly. If I see him cry I will cry too. Guys do give me some proper suggestions. Will it bad idea to meet as of now? Thank you