My ex only contacts me when she needs something. I’ve been soooo hesitant on blocking her cause I don’t want it to seem like she affects me, or that I don’t love her, or that I don’t want her to reach out. However, it’s really killing me to feel so powerless.

I do want her to reach out when she truly misses me, not just when she needs something. I don’t want to give mixed signals, but I feel more and more that blocking her is the right thing to do. We were madly in love, there’s no question, but things turned toxic and it’s only right for us to go our separate ways.

She blocked me on Snapchat cause I called her out for fucking with other dudes so easily and quickly, which I was correct. I feel like if I don’t block her on FB and IG, then she may block me eventually and she will be in full control of our communication. It sucks cause I know her so well and she has a HUGE ego, she runs from her problems instead of facing them.

Apart of me thinks she will run for the rest of her life because she’s 36 and is quite immature for her age and you can’t teach an old dog new tricks. I pray for her healing and hope one day we can see each other again, and I just don’t want to completely diminish the chances of us ever seeing each other again in this physical world.

I feel like, in order for me to have control and take my power back, I should block her so she doesn’t get the option but I’m just so confused 😵‍💫😖😔