It hurts, I miss him, things are still raw. I know when it gets to 1 month no contact, I'll feel much better. 1 month no contact, will be the longest no contact. Even if he reaches out, I'm strong enough to not return. He's shown me, he could never be who I need him to be. I'll only hurt myself returning. I'm worth more than someone who lies /gaslights me, I'm worth more than begging for bare minimum, I'm worth more than feeling worthless. Sometimes, the only way a person truly learns, is by losing access to you, for life.

You may have broken my heart but you'll never get the chance, to do it a second time.

I would rather a life time single, than crying alone wishing I could have my love reciprocated and feeling my mental health deteriorate.

No matter how sad I may get, I remind myself of these painful periods; no matter how sweet/fun, the good times were. Broke the toxic loop, like an addict getting clean, don't return to the same thing, that nearly took it all away!