My heart is literally empty. I have nothing left to give to anyone anymore. I have no desire to go through another 4 years only to end up with nothing but a heart and confidence shattered into millions of pieces.

She broke down my walls and emotional barriers that I swore I would never happen again.

She said she would never hurt me how I had been in the past only to do the exact same thing as them (it’s not you, it’s me)

Never again. I’m 40 I’ve seen how dating has changed with the advent of apps and I’m just not interested in participating in that game, or any other which wil only eventually lead straight back to where I am atm.

I’m now going to live the quiet uncomplicated life. I don’t need this shit anymore. I can’t trust anyone with my heart, emotions or feelings.