Opinions, answers to questions, and advice are welcome!

We’ve been NC (not by my choice this time) since we broke up in May. He said we would work on a friendship but pretty much ghosted the day or hours after the breakup. He didn’t wish me a happy birthday a few months ago either. Now I have a new phone number and I don’t know if I should text him my new number and a happy birthday message (birthday is in a few days)?

I feel like I’ve gone through all the stages of grief and I’m now at the acceptance part. I’ve accepted this is who he is, these are the things he’s done, and he more than likely is aware of what he’s doing. I don’t know if in my acceptance I still love him. My body feels numb and my heart definitely is too. I know for a fact I have nothing else to give anyone as far as deeply loving them. I just feel that now that I’ve accepted his actions as they are with no excuses and knowing I did not deserve any of that. I’ve also given him his space to be… does this mean my love for him is dwindling away ?

I still love him as he’s only the second person I’ve ever been in love with (my first was 10 years ago). But what is this weird place I’m in now? I don’t know how to explain loving someone but not as actively and deep as it was a few months ago?