I don’t know how i can go on and continue to live like this. I don’t see any hope or positive outcome. I haven’t broken NC even though i want to, but the days are not getting any easier. We were together for 2 years, she was my dream and she said i was hers, until i wasn’t anymore. I cant focus on anything else but her and everything reminds me of her. I don’t know how to give up hope that she will reach out to me, even though it is very unlikely. If i can’t be with her i don’t know if i want to live. I would give anything just to be able to see her and talk to her the way she used to talk to me. I know she doesn’t love me anymore but the only reason i’m able to keep going is the idea that maybe some day she will change her mind and come back. we were closer than ever and it’s like she became a different person overnight, truly a stranger i thought i knew. It’s only been a week and i don’t know how much longer i can do this. i know it’s supposed to take time but i’m sick of losing chunks of time from my life just trying to feel ok, i don’t know if i can give myself time.