It sucks, it really does. Just a while ago, maybe weeks or months, or even years ago, some of us planned a life with them. We dreamed and talked about this year 2023 with them as if we would never lose them, as if we will always have them, as if we would always be with them.

Hours before 2023, there was this dreaded feeling of wishing it was all a dream that we have to leave them behind and face the coming year head on and all by ourselves (in a romantic sense). Honestly, I was wishing she was missing me as much, that she was also thinking of me as much. I wish I could wake up and see her right beside me again, or maybe through the screen because we can't sleep the night together and have to be okay with that for a while. We dreamed of so much more with them back then. But right now, just to be with them would be enough.

However, we have and should left them there. We should free them. We should free ourselves. They are all a part of our past. And all we can control is the now. As much as it sucks and hurts, they are and probably will never be a part of our future anymore. Maybe some of us were told that we can be friends with them still. I was honestly told by my ex that we can be friends with no expectations of getting back together again. And I did not agree. If I did, we would have a future still, just not in the way I wanted and deserve. And I hope no one agreed with that setup too. Rather than having them still as friends or acquaintances, I hope that all of us will be able to endure the pain for now, heal from the past, and be our better selves. And maybe a month, months or a year from now, we might meet the right ones for us, the ones who'll choose to treat us the right way, who'll stay and make things right and better with us always, and who will always choose us the way we choose them.

We deserve so much more. And I hope that we can and will be okay later on. Right now, I hope we can enjoy the new year with our friends, pets, families and other loved ones. Cry if you need to, let it all out. Rest as well. And afterwards, give the love you wanted to give to the ones who want to receive and reciprocate it.

To our exes, this message also applies to you. We all deserve to be okay. To my ex, I loved you and I still do. But I am letting you go. Let us be happy, okay? I will be happy. Good bye.