I considered making this an anonymous post, but I think context would give it away, so WTF. I am looking for honest advice here. Here goes we became non-monogamous 8 years ago and have had so many experiences. I began to actually identify as a Poly leaning Swinger and a stag. Two years ago, i had a fairly severe stroke and I lost a lot of function on the left side of my body. My life drastically changed. My Misfits family was so amazing for me and for Karin Joy and I appreciate everyone so much. Now here is where I am Struggling: Since the stroke I have not played at all with anyone outside our marriage. I am caught in this mindset that nobody will be interested in me, why would they be, given my mobility issues and physical limits. Nobody tells us how to live this lifestyle, so I wonder if at this time I should give up this lifestyle even when it is how I Identify? What would that mean for my spouse, since i have no desire for her to leave the lifestyle? Nobody in the group has ever made me feel anything but welcome, but I get in my own head and wonder if people look at me and write me off because of my scooter or cane, or worse as someone to pity. Have any of the long-term couples discussed situations like this? What would you do?