For the first time, I am practicing nonmonogamy in my home state. ( I practiced for six months in another place, far away from family and old friends.)

IT IS AMAZING.

However I have had a couple of hiccups already, as can be expected.

I have an incredible amount of NRE right now. I just started two relationships that are both in the third date stage right now. I am practically obsessed with one person because I had the best sex I can remember (I don't have a long memory but at least three years) last night and it just feels life changing. Everything in my life feels right even though I had an experience two Fridays ago where a guy didn't tell me the condom had come off inside of me. (Three days later I was starting to get very concerned about my smell and then all of the sudden while on the john this condom starts coming out of me. Yes, I informed my other two partners.) He had said he needed to put a new one on, so...there was some communication there and I don't think he was a complete villain, but I still don't understand how it came off and then how it got stuck there but we don't have to dwell on that and I learned from the experience that I need to be better about actually listening to my gut. Also for clarification, the person I'm "obsessed" with is not the same person.

I also struggle with being bipolar and am worried I am hypomanic right now, but if this person was okay with having a kid in their house (I want to foster, not necessarily have a kid, but I also don't want to do it at this moment) I feel like I would have to literally bite my tongue to not ask them if I could move in, that's how strong the NRE is and I've known him for two weeks. That is not nearly long enough to know a person well enough to move in. I know it's insane. I just...*sigh* They're so much everything that I want besides the kid thing. They read me incredibly well, the banter is top notch, the sex is MINDBLOWING and I have never left a man's place feeling such a deep sense of connection and satisfaction. (I did have an ex that I lived with that I experienced similar feelings for but it took years for that kind of connection to be fostered.)

Does anyone have any advice for how I can keep my feelings in check so I don't hurt the other remaining guy while I process my emotions? The other guy is brand new to nonmonogamy and prefers to know as little as possible about my other interactions.

I think I also just wanted to tell someone, because I'm not exactly out about it. I'm out about it to some of my friends, but I think they think this is not a permanent thing and I'm just "playing the field" as a newly single person.

Thank you for being an awesome community and teaching me so much over the years. I'm excited to grow and learn in this year to come.