I think I need to have more than one relationship to feel well rounded. But here’s the thing, I don’t want my partner to feel the same. So basically, when I was a teen, I can remember having a bf but also needing to know other guys liked me too. I used to think this was bc of low self esteem, and in some way I think it probably was, but here it is 30 years later, and I am married and in love with another man as well. Now my husband and I have had many serious problem so I quite frequently found myself having a side relationship that was often emotional but the chemistry of NRE I think was something I needed. We have finally gotten to the point where our marriage is good, but lacking chemistry and passion. Whereas my other guy, what we have is a deep friendship along with so much passion and chemistry too, that I realized I don’t think I want just my husband but this other man as well. However, I don’t necessarily want either of them to have a secondary relationship to me. My husband isn’t even remotely interested in anyone else and my other man is probably always looking for someone else, which I totally accept bc we can’t have the future together he wants. But I definitely feel like I need that sort of NRE type mix in with everything. Even though my other man I’ve known almost as long as I’ve been married.