My partner and I recently started the non monogamy journey and I've been having very bad OCD intrusive thoughts. When partner is away, I try to distract myself but I am unable to do anything due to too much rumination.

I'm happy that he is having a good time with someone else and I really want to be comforting to him when he gets home. I really want this to work!

Does someone have the same issue or know how to deal better with it? I normally can live with it pretty well, I can control it when it comes to other topics, but this is very difficult.

With this post I guess I'm just trying to find some "you are not alone in this path".

Thanks!