Fisrt time here oh boy ! me (FtM 21) & my gf (MtF 22) have been dating for a year and some months now (February being our second year together) and everything seemed to be perfect, she is my first partner & relationship ever but she's more experienced in the dating game. Anyway long story short we hit a rough patch like a month ago and things haven't been the same between us but she kept saying "it's nothing", that turned into "I just dont feel the same" turning into "I don't know what I want" which in turn made me feel insanely bad because I felt I had done something bad or I wasn't good enough for her. Until recently (last week) she finally worked up the courage to let me know that she still loves me and emotionally that hasn't changed a bit but sexually she wants to be a bit more open about ourselves and experience more things... And that's where the conflict is and keep in mind we'll talk about this later this week more in depth but I'm just not sure what I myself want as well... As mentioned this is my first relationship and I know it's gonna sound cliche and I can already see older people than us rolling their eyes but I truly feel like she's the one and only for me... I've been thinking about this a lot because she has always told it was something she thought of but I never really thought it could be a reality I'd be facing with her... And well one of the main conflicts I have is I'm not sure if we open sexually only if I would even do anything with anyone else and it'd be just herself, would that be normal? would that be something that can work and some of you guys have experience with? one thing that just sticks out to me is well.. this is my first relationship so why not go all the way out and see if an open relationship works with me to keep it as experience? And also I think it was very brave of her to talk this with me instead of just breaking up with me over it so I also think I want to give her a chance and see if this is what she really wants as it's also her first time being in an open relationship (if we do decide to open it) some things also worth noting (imo at least) is she mentioned this is sexually only explicitly no feelings involved and she mentioned she just wants to keep it open in a certain period and she might want close it and the open it again. I've been reading a lot of articles about the subject to see if this is something I would be willing to try but most of them are from the perspective of a person wanting to be open in well.. an open relationship, that would be my conflict I guess it would be open but I wouldn't be doing anything with anyone else (as far as i know hahah) sorry for the rambling & sorry if it doesnt make much sense (English is not my first language haha) but I really would appreciate some advice or well more than that experiences I guess I just don't really know:/