So the wife and I have been discussing ENM where I’m committed and she’s able to pursue lovers on the side. Hotwife is the term I believe. However, I’m no cuck. I’m turned on my the voyer and compersion aspect. My one and only rule is for her to insist on STD and STI screenings. She said that was a given. The goal for us is for her to have stability within our marriage and lustful sex with men she’s vetted and gotten to know for a while.

Initially I wanted to be there but the potential guy is someone she’s known for a while. He is not a risk to her safety. I reflected on why I wanted to be present and it didn’t fit our mutually agreed upon goals. I wanted to be present for my own enjoyment she said she’d just be interested in me and I didn’t want to distract her from the experience. I’d rather she be able to explore her sexual prowess and have uninhibited and novel safe sex. After being with me for over 15 years I want her to experience more than what I offer. I suggested she record in lieu of me being there physically she immediately said that made her horny and did the trick in terms of her hesitation. We uncovered an exhibitionist side of her. I’m super excited for us and can’t wait to see all the new sights and hear all the new sounds. I’m not entering into this unwittingly nor do I have a desire to direct a porno. I truly want her to get off.

Looking forward to what seems to be more possible now than ever.