hi all -

my partner (26nb) and i (25nb) recently became non-monogamous. i was the one who initially brought the idea up in october, and while my partner was on board, they expressed that they didn't know if they would be interested in anyone else

we officially opened up a couple of weeks ago, and my partner started seeing someone. i've been on a date, but haven't met anyone i wanted to pursue. my partner has been seeing the same person for a bit, and last night they made out. this is the first time that our non-monogamy has become physical

while i'm not mad at them for doing this, and it was very much in bounds with our agreements, so many feelings are coming up and i feel incredibly upset. they've provided support and reassurance, but the overwhelm is really intense

how do you all process these kinds of feelings? like i said, they've done nothing wrong, and i feel frustrated that i'm so upset by this

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