i’m a butch lesbian. i’ve been identifying for a while as transmasc but only recently been out as a lesbian. anyway i’m on a few lesbian subreddits and even tho it feels great to finally be my true self in this sense, in the sense that i love women/other nb individuals ONLY and to be a proud butch, comfortable with both my masc and fem sides, and the beautiful mix that comes from them, i still find myself feeling a bit lonely because i’m still very much non monogamous and relationship anarchist but i don’t think those aspects are very welcomed in lesbian spaces, and ESPECIALLY not coming from a butch. i’ll be honest, i haven’t really tried to interact with other lesbians about it but i’m just so, so scared to simply be pushed away. i want a partner. i want to be in love and be able to love my partner, but i won’t compromise my beliefs and it feels like i’m never going to find anyone for me.