Recently, my husband and I have been in discussions about me exploring my sexuality. We are from a rural area, and, although I have known I was bisexual since I was young, I never really got to explore that side of me due to societal repression due to the rural area. We have talked about this several times, including with my friend who has a similar set up in her marriage, but I am on the fence. My husband is fully supportive if I wish to pursue this, as long as we have set boundaries and open communication. I feel like I am wired to feel guilt and shame for even thinking about it, but I also feel like it would be healing to explore that side of my identity (with full transparency and agreement from my husband). Just not sure what to do or how to feel.

I am just looking for advice and resources for this kind of set up. I am not sure how to move forward with it, as I am interested in doing so. I just feel my emotions big, so when I have mixed emotions (interest mixed with ingrained guilt), it can be hard for me to navigate. I think this could be extremely healing and beneficial for me to explore a side of me I never had the chance to, but I am just anxious.