She’d get drunk and take all of her pills when I was a kid and then call me upstairs to tell me that she loved me and was sorry she was such a burden to me. She did it again when I was in my20s. I cut her off a couple of time but then her drinking and lack of following a treatment plan. It’s been a year since I last saw her and she was drunk and took a swing at me, so we went no contact again. Today I found out the she called my sister to come over and then took all of her pills. She wanted my sister to find her. She shat herself when the paramedics came and she was taken away in the ambulance. She did it so my sister would find her. It’s so messed up. It feels like what she used to do to me. I went to the hospital but she didn’t see me and I didn’t want to hear her apologize so I left. I don’t know what I feel right now.