with Mother’s Day coming up I’m feeling so much guilt not being around since Christmas, mainly because I know how much it hurts her/them. I feel expected to have to visit and celebrate and praise my mom (though it feels like it’s just to make her happy- but I guess isn’t that what the day is about?) It just all feels so fake to me. I don’t want to have to go pretend like I’m happy to be around her and enjoy her company. Don’t get me wrong, she’s not a horrible person, but, you know, I don’t have it in me to say she did a great job. She did the best job she could the way she knew how and did what she felt was right. Is there a card that says that? Maybe I’ll make a homemade one.