Hello, fellas!

Been slowly trying to get into the game for like 2 weeks now after watching almost religiously only Tarkov videos for the past 2 months. I know I am supposed to die A LOT to learn and that's the learning curve in here. I started going into raids and trying to solo them but i got out of 1 out of 9 alive. I'm scaving here and there and managing to get a few barter items and some shotguns and cheap rigs, even a terra labs card. But my question is, if I end up using all my gear and dying, and then buying some more and dying some more again, how will I be able to play afterwards? Constant dying seem to not get me so much xp, therefore the Flea Market feels light years away from me. Any tips for overcoming this mindset? I absolutely love the game's style, aesthetics and gameplay, but I'm afraid that I'll always be a timmy.