I've been playing FPS games my whole life, even with more "hardcore" ones I've never come close to the level of stress that Tarkov gives me. I hear everybody talk about "gear fear" as a new player but this is something else. A naked mosin run on the most empty map has my heart rate higher than when I exercise, and I've probably uninstalled and reinstalled the game 4 or more times, first telling myself that it just isn't the game for me and then coming back thinking it's going to be different. Like I WANT to like this game, I know that if I play it enough that "fear" if you can even call it that will go away, but after 5 minutes of actually playing this I feel drained and would rather just play something else. And then I end up uninstalling to make space for another game, until a few weeks later, when I get some Tarkov video recommended to me and I start thinking "Hmm... I bet if I reinstall and really, really spend some time getting better, I can actually enjoy it!" And the cycle continues.