I’m going through a breakup and as a way to heal I’ve decided to share our love story. Don’t worry…This is unlike any love story you’ve ever heard before.  

This is the true adventure of the accidental polyquad (part 1 of many).  

Before.

My husband Lance and I became swingers at the beginning of 2023, experimenting with many of dynamics and fantasies. I was having a great time but after a year I was over it. It was a lot of effort and time and money, not to mention I was learning that casual sex wasn’t my thing. My husband was going through a period of low self esteem and mentioned that he matched with a “hotwife” couple, Lulu and Toby. He knew I didn’t want to meet any more couples, but asked me to message with them because there was a chance he could hook up with her and I wouldn’t need to be involved. He showed me their pictures, I thought the husband was handsome and she was cute, so I agreed to verify in the group chat and see where things led.  

The chat moved slowly, so one night Lance asked me to send them a nude. I agreed and we sent a topless photo. Toby was flirty with his response but it ended there (Lance tried to get me to send bj photos also, but I insisted it was too soon).  

A couple nights later the 4 of us all happened to be online at the same time and we got to chatting about life, our kids, our interests. We realized our kids were only a few months apart and were both into Paw Patrol. I said that we liked to joke with our son and say “Rubble on the triple” (iykyk lol) and Lulu screamed that Toby says that to their son too.  

We were all laughing and having a great time. We shared a bit about our respective swinging journeys, which could not have been more different. Lulu stated that Toby had been trying to get a threesome for the 13 years they had been together and she finally agreed to try non-monogamy after she turned 30. They told us they had a vacation house about an hour away from us and invited us to come for a night in February. I kind of brushed it over but noted the date in my mind just in case. We ended the conversation by asking if we should break into individual chats, and shortly after they both DMed me.  

Chatting with strangers.

Toby messaged me “hey cutie” and I wasn’t vibing with him right away. I told him I loved giving head (which a few days later he told me he wasn’t that into having his dick sucked because every girl hurt him with her teeth. He said he was kinda “thick”). Toby was also great at taking dick pics, which I appreciated. We didn’t message much that first night and he had to travel for work the next day.   

Lulu and I messaged the entire next day, asking questions about her hotwife experiences and her bi-curiousities. Lance talked to her all day as well and was instantly crushing. He mentioned that she said she doesn’t do “blowjobs or anal” and he didn’t love that - Lance has a huge oral fixation and cum fetish, so blowjobs have always been his fav.  

This is when I should mention I had an online boyfriend at this time (something my husband and I were experimenting with as I have a very high sex drive and enjoy virtual connections).  Lance was starting to see the appeal of a online connection as his crush on Lulu grew over the weekend. On Sunday he was smiling at his phone all day until dinner time when he mentioned she had stopped texting for a few hours.  

Meanwhile, Toby was headed to the vacation house with their toddler for an overnight trip. He text me after he got in and I realized he was really cool and our parenting styles were very similar. We chatted for a bit and he said he liked talking to me because I was easy to open up to. He told me about his sexual history, which was mostly being with Lulu since he was 18. He said he was kinkier than her and that’s why he wanted this. It was mostly about allowing her to try new things and hopefully open her up sexually. I asked questions about the hotwife dynamic as the whole thing fascinated me.  

Around this time, Lance hears back from Lulu. She had been on a hotwife date set up by Toby, she went to dinner with a guy she never met and then “got laid,” as she relayed to Lance. He was livid. He comes upstairs and tells me he’s no longer interested.  

Yet… we kept talking to them, and Lance and Lulu work it out over the next few days . My birthday rolls around and I unfortunately catch a horrible case of covid. Earlier in the day I sent a nude to Toby, and he replied “the things I would do to you” - when I was still feeling decent I said “like what?” trying to be flirty. He says, “that depends if you like it rough or not,” to which I reply I do! 

But by the time he responds I’m deathly ill. He said a bunch of kinky stuff like he’d tie me up and blindfold me while he teases me, maybe choke me. I was so not into it… I even had Lance read the messages and asked if the guy was taking it too far. Lance tells me I’m just sick and that he didn’t say anything too crazy.  I brush it off but really don’t flirt with Toby much after.  

Meeting face to face.  

Fast forward a few weeks to Presidents’ Day weekend. At the last minute we decide, what the hell let’s meet them. We agree to a Saturday night overnight trip in their vacation house with the kids, no expectations for swapping or anything sexual. Lance is annoyed by the whole thing, particularly my insistence that we were not hooking up with them. I hadn’t even brought it up with Toby yet that I currently wasn’t having full PIV swaps unless the husband was snipped because we were trying for a baby. Also, our toddler needs someone to lay with him to fall asleep and my biggest issue with everything was the thought that I’d be stuck babysitting while everyone else is hooking up. We started driving to their house, packed only for one night, and I remind Lance that nothing is going to happen. His nerves grow throughout the drive while I felt totally calm.  

We text them a few minutes out and when we pull up the three of them are standing in their driveway waiting. We hug hello awkwardly and I gather our bags to bring inside. They take us in and show us their beautiful house. The boys get to playing right away as we all sit down nervously. It’s a fun day of the kids getting to know each other and us parents trying to navigate everything. Finally it’s bedtime for the kids, I go down with our son to get him to sleep and to my surprise he falls asleep quickly and easily.

The first night.

The four of us then decide to play a game of cards against humanity. We have fun and get flirty but after the game ends the night stalls. I was trying to bring up swinging but was chickening out when our son woke up and refused to fall back asleep. Tbh I felt a bit validated that he did, because I told Lance we couldn’t hook up because of the kid. When I go to check on my son, I see Lulu falling asleep on the couch.  

I’m laying in the guest room texting my online bf and Lance tells me the conversation upstairs is “getting crazy.” The 3 of them talked about the potential swap and swinging. Lance tells them I am not having PIV at the moment, having to explain to them what “piv” stood for lol. They were so cute. Meanwhile I’m annoyed I’m missing all the good stuff and venting to my online bf.  

My son half falls asleep and I run up to join in on the fun. I see Lulu sitting up completely engaged, a stark difference from how she looked when I went downstairs. Unfortunately, not even 15 minutes later he’s up again and everyone calls it a night. Lance and I lay in the guest bed together with our son watching TV between us. It’s tight. That’s when Toby and Lulu start texting us.  

I can tell they are horny and I feel Lance’s frustration with me grow as he gets hornier and more annoyed at the situation. He decides to lay in the extra guest room as the bed isn’t comfortable with us all. My son keeps watching TV as I lay there texting both my online bf and Toby. Toby asks “hypothetically if your son fell asleep, would you want to come in here and cuddle and talk?” And I tell him yes. I do tell him it’s unlikely my kid will fall asleep. Then Lance texts me and asks how I’d feel if Lulu came in and they cuddled and made out. I was all for it.  

At this point my online bf and I are getting pretty pervy together. We’re hoping Lance is fucking Lulu and I start to convince myself he is. My bf he tells me to go blow Toby and make him cum like the goddess I am. He is pumping me up about the whole situation and suddenly I’m so unbelievably horny. I text him that I’m going to go make the other guy cum and after I’ll make him cum telling him all about it. I turn the TV off and my kid instantly falls asleep, I ask Toby if I can come in (he says yes right away), and I leave my phone to walk into the master bedroom.

 *********** ************ ************ The moment we kissed, everything changed.

It was nearly 3am as I knock on the door to his room, hearing Toby fumble off the bed as he comes to open it for me. He tells me I could have just walked in and I giggle as we walk towards his bed. He turns towards me about halfway there and kisses me hard as I lean my body against his. It was unlike anything - I wasn’t even sure I liked him up until the moment we kissed and my entire body lit up with desire. I pressed against him as we made out, his hands all over me. Eventually we find the bed, kissing deep and grinding on each other, his hard dick rubbing against my pussy. At one point I was on top of him and he spanked me hard. I loved it as he called me a good girl. I was like putty in his hands. I was so horny and he was turning me on so much. I wanted to make him cum so bad.  

He gets me on my back and starts undressing me and when he goes for my pj pants, I tell him I’m unfortunately on the last day of my period. I can tell he’s bummed, but we keep kissing and I feel his cock with my hands for the first time. He tells me if he could fuck me he would and with his cock pressed against my pussy opening (through the pants) he dry humps me hard, holding my body tight against his. I shiver with lust as he presses his dick so hard against me making me imagine how he’d feel inside me. I was panting I was so horny. I ask him if I can put it in my mouth. He seems caught off guard but says sure and gets on his back.  

I kneel in front of him, his legs spread as I grab his cock with my hands. I feel the weight of his heavy shaft and put it in my mouth. I am into it. I suck on him and tell him I’ve been working on deep throating and asked him to fuck my throat. He held my head and fucked me hard, me taking it as much as I could. He slows down and I pull out all my tricks, using my hand to stroke him while I play with the head. I do a move where I jerk the top of his dick with my hands in a twisty motion and suck up and down as he lays there squirming and moaning. I know he’s close when he asks me where to cum, and I stop sucking to say anywhere but my mouth, a rule I had established recently. I keep going but now all I can think is how badly I want to taste and swallow his cum and how I should have just kept quiet and made him cum in my mouth.  

After I keep sucking for a bit Toby pulls me up to kiss me and I tell him I want to make him cum. He tells me he has a hard time sometimes and he rather just kiss and talk for a bit. I feel defeated as he warned me this might happen but I thought I was good enough at giving head that I could get him there first try. Let’s just say I’ve never had any complaints and I’ve always gotten every man there quickly when I want to. But he reassures me it’s not me (And later tells me he was so close when I stopped earlier and he regretted even asking me where he should cum). Suddenly I remember that I told my online bf I’d be back. I say I’m going to go check on my son and run to the room to text him, telling him I can’t talk and I’ll fill him in the next day. I leave my phone again and go back to Toby.  

Toby and I have amazing chemistry and we click instantly. We spend the next few hours back and forth between talking and kissing and nipple play and dry humping and sucking. I’m utterly submissive with him. I feel like I’ve known him my whole life.  

He looks for a lot of reassurance that everything he is doing isn’t too much and I encourage him to keep going. I felt like he was worried he was pushing my limits and I tried to explain that I was not that girl… he hadn’t come close to offending me in any way whatsoever and I wanted him to do what he wanted with me without fear. I had plenty experience and we hadn’t gotten close to my limits.

Toby and I open up to each other. Our conversation flows effortlessly, although we were overly excited and unable to stay on topic, telling each other so much in those few hours in between pressing our bodies together. Toby touched me the whole night.  

It’s nearly 6am when Tony mentions he feels bad for telling Lulu she couldn’t have sex with Lance. He said he was kind of a dick when she asked if she could go cuddle with Lance because he thought I was going to sleep and he was annoyed to miss out again.  

My heart stops. Omfg. Lance didn’t get to fuck Lulu. I was convinced he had, this fake narrative I made up with my cucky online boyfriend. And the worst part… I never told Lance I was coming in here to hang out with Toby.

  I break into a panic. The entire point of this trip was to “even the score” as Lance wanted the chance to fuck someone without my involvement. And now I had let this guy face fuck me and I was obsessed with his cock to the point of desperation… and for all I knew, Lance didn’t get anything. I couldn’t breathe. I fucked up and I knew it.  

I go back to the guest room and see an hours old text from my husband asking if we fooled around. I don’t respond and “try to sleep” but instead stew in my anxiety until my son wakes up at 730. Lance eventually texts me that he and Lulu made out. I ask if they had sex and he says no but she jerked him off. I tell him I went in with Toby. He asks a few questions until “did you suck his dick?” I try to skirt the question but eventually I fess up. Lance goes absolutely insane with fury.

The morning after.

Things are uncomfortable as everyone starts waking up. Lance is upset and raging over text. I let Toby know of the situation and he mentions that maybe we could stay an extra night so that Lance has the opportunity to have sex with Lulu. I am not sure how to bring that up but we get through breakfast and check in with my parents, who are watching my pets. Lance is moving from anger to determination, telling me he wants to stay and be with Lulu again. Eventually we all discuss the possibility of staying another night and both Toby and Lulu offer an enthusiastic invitation. We decide to stay and see where things land.

The spark continues.

The second night with Toby is much like the first, lots of sucking and kissing and touching… but also we just enjoy each other so much and can’t stop smiling. I am unable to make him cum again, which is bumming me out so much, but my attraction to him is palpable. We spend hours naked in his bed before falling asleep.

In the morning, Lance tells me he had sex with Lulu. I ask if he likes her and he seems really into her. But suddenly he starts texting me about how he can’t get over the fact that she’s a hotwife and hooked up with a guy just a few weeks ago. I’m unsure how to handle the situation. In my head, all I can think is how do I keep Toby. I’m nervous that Lance is going to shut the whole thing down and trying to figure out how to manage his concerns without ruining this entire situation.

One thing leads to another and we are invited to stay a third night (Monday). I tell them I need to grab a few things at target since we didn’t expect to stay this long and Toby offers to drive me. I ask Lance if that’s ok and he agrees.

Toby and I hold hands in the car and make out in the parking lot. Lance is texting me, obviously still upset and telling me the kids are starting to be difficult. I’m letting Toby know where we are and he starts talking about us as a group… asking how we would feel if she stopped hotwifing, maybe the 4 of us could agree to meet once a month, he wants to start texting me during the day and maybe making something out of this arrangement. My mind is spinning. All I know is I need to get the situation with Lance and his feelings about Lulu under control.

The quad is born.

After the kids went to bed, I suggested we all have a discussion about what we want going forward. I encourage Lance to express his concerns about his connection with Lulu. Toby tells us they both have been looking for someone to be a friends with benefits type situation but feelings were never allowed - but with us, we all recognized that Lulu and Lance came into the weekend with feelings. They had been talking and flirting for nearly a month. And after meeting this weekend, now Toby and I had feelings.

They asked if we wanted to be exclusive and try “dating each other.” We said we weren’t ready to commit to that but wanted to take time to think about it. Lulu and Lance got into it about her hotwifing and the hook up. It was tense and I was super uncomfortable (I’m usually silent in these types of discussions because I struggle with sharing how I feel in real time). Then at the end of a strained exchange between Lulu and Lance, she says “I know I suck” and Toby jokes “No, you don’t actually that’s why we’re here,” and we all start laughing. It breaks the ice and we settle into a tentative agreement that we are going to try a polyquad before heading off to bed for the third swap of the weekend.

Squirt.

The third night, I mention to Toby I’m no longer on my period. Toby had told me he absolutely loved fingering but he didn’t really do oral sex because he didn’t think he was good at it. He was so embarrassed and seemed upset but I told him it wasn’t really my favorite anyway and not to worry. He didn’t seem against it and said he wanted to try it with me but I didn’t press the topic. Then when he started to finger me it didn’t matter anyway.

Toby made me feel amazing. He pressed his strong hands into my pussy hard and jerked his arm around. I was in bliss as he pleased me, hearing sloshing noises as he kept going. I knew I was feeling good but I couldn’t believe how wet I sounded. Toby worked my pussy really hard and then collapsed on me telling me he needed a break. I felt like the sheets were wet underneath me. I didn’t think I had cum but something really good happened. Then when he moved off me I caught a whiff of a scent that could only be described as pussy plus cum and a dash of pee. Feeling shocked I asked him if I squirted and he smiled and said “a little bit yeah.” I couldn’t believe it but loved every minute of it, I wanted more and more.

We did hookup on and off through the night but I was upset at failing to make Toby cum. However I did feel an insane attraction between us and loved every minute I was with him. When I packed up the car the next morning before we left to go home, I acknowledged my infatuation towards Toby. I thought about my husband and Lulu together and felt nothing but excitement about this fantasy scenario unfolding in my life between the four of us.