I helped run a cannabis grow back in college. It was a small operation, nothing crazy - just a way for me, my boyfriend at the time, and a few friends to grow our own supply. Plus, making a little extra money didn't hurt one bit (who am I kidding, we made bank!) We gutted a warehouse, rebuilt it, set up the lights in the grow rooms, and began introducing seedlings to their new home. After the first harvest, it was time to expand, and recruit.

When my boyfriend said our new grower would be staying in the spare room at our apartment for a while, I thought nothing of it.

Dune was a vagrant, popping into our lives for a few months until he'd end up back in jail. He was tattooed all over, with messy, bleach blonde hair; a typical surfer dude. He spoke slowly, with barely-opened eyes, laughed often (in the classic stoner-kid pitch), and gave zero fucks.

Surprisingly enough, Dune was the perfect roommate. He gave my boyfriend and I plenty of space for date nights, offered to buy communal groceries, and made sure the house bong was always loaded. He constantly had a smile on his face, a signature triangular grin.

Our new roommate only had one bad habit, and it was beginning to... affect me. Every morning, on my way to the shower, I would catch a glimpse Dune's sleeping form through the open crack in his door, and he never, ever, covered himself. The first time I saw his round, white ass, I was so shocked that I slammed into the wall, then half-tripped into the bathroom, stubbing three toes and waking both of my housemates in the process.

It wasn't like I hadn't seen a few butt cheeks before, but there was something about his brash vulnerability that set a burning desire in my brain from the very first glimpse. Walking down the hallway to the shower soon became my favorite part of the day. It fed me more than a proper meal ever had. I started getting excited when the sun would set, knowing my next fix was only hours away.

After a week, I had my steps timed perfectly, the turn of my head gyroscopically calculated, and the swish of my movements softened by the recent addition of socks. It was just a quick, harmless glance... and in the beginning... that was enough. My emotions changed slowly. The mere thought that he might get up before me, denying my need to catch him unaware, would give me more anxiety than inspections from the cannabis board agents. I started using the stolen glances as a panacea through the day. Any time I felt pain, concern, or discontentment, all I had to do was remember Dune's perfect, white ass.

The lines between my desires and the fiendish reality of my actions blurred even further the first day I found him laying on his back. Tattoos that I had seen disappearing beneath the hem of his regular pair of board shorts continued onto his upper thighs, the only bare skinned spot being...

I couldn't stop myself from staring at his half-raised cock for a few perilous seconds. My mouth went dry, my palms began to sweat, and my eyes refused to blink. The gaze lasted only as long as my breath, an eventual lack of oxygen forcibly zipping my petrified body down the hallway and through the bathroom door.

I collapsed into the vanity, locked my elbows against the sink, and met my own eyes in the mirror. "What. The. Fuck." I mouthed the words without speaking, biting my lip instinctively as the image of his morning wood burned into my mind. The hunger I saw in myself was altogether foreign - even intimidating. Who was this person staring back at me?

I felt a rush of guilt for taking such a brazen and forbidden look at my roommate like that... but the excitement was undeniable. I never had any intention to fuck Dune, or reveal my crime to anyone, but, regardless of the escalation, I didn't take the next day off from my ritual, or the next, or the next.

For the following month, I treated his body like a magic eight ball: ass-up meant good day, dick-up meant great day.

Like all good things, my roommate rubbernecking came to an end one morning.

I grabbed my towel and tiptoed down the hallway like usual, but as Dune's mattress came into view, I saw movement, and I froze. I'd been successfully peeping at his naked body, and I wasn't about to give up my guilty pleasure by being caught. However, the sounds I heard next were too distinct to back away from.

"Shit, yeah..." hisses Dune. The sound almost buckles my knees. I can't risk him seeing me... can I? I feel a cold sweat on my neck realizing what a compromising position I've found myself in. Can I even bring myself to turn away now? My feet said no, refusing to retreat back to my bedroom. "Ah, fuck." His voice crumpled into a whimper.

I slid the back of my head sideways across the wall, just barely able to see Dune's thigh. The muscles of his leg shook in a manner only fitting one activity. I felt my core clenching, reinforcing my next shift into a better view. The slight adjustment bring his hard, lube-coated cock into view just as he began to cum. His fist moved slowly, his hips lifting with each thrust. I watched, salivating, as his torso bended and writhed with his oncoming orgasm.

One of his hands shot down to the base of his shaft, pumping stream after stream of ejaculate against the flat of his other hand. Most of his cum dripped from his palm, collecting on his rising and falling abdomen. I was urgently turned on, but hearing myself think, *I need to fuck him,* sent me lunging backwards. I'd never, ever been one to consider cheating, and, until recently, I'd never even been one to ogle.

I ran back to my bedroom, a figurative tail between my legs. I slipped back under the covers, unavoidably waking my boyfriend. Groggy, he asked, "No shower?"

"Maybe later," I whispered, not sure how long I would last until "later" came calling.