Part 1 available: here

4th dm

This session was a mixed bag of tiredness and interruptions, heightened desire and distraction. It, or the kids, or the general state of the world has left me in a dom drop. Perhaps both of us frustrated, but that's to be expected when you have kids.

Two interruptions this time. sigh what are parents to do? You can't hypnotise the little blighters.

We kicked off with dressing her in a crotchless basque and silk robe for warmth, sat her in a chair opposite where I was sat on the bed and drew her back into the Elman Induction, with its fractionation and countdowns.

All smooth and as before with the addition of kiddy number 1 trying to door and demanding more food as I waggled her thumb to demonstrate her limp arms.

I had foresight to prompt her to disregard what was happening and descend into trance. By the time I'd convinced him to go get some crisps, "Look, any crisps! Whatever you fancy! Just, don't come back!", I repeated the thumb waggle with the other hand.

Though I wonder if I should have spent time with a bit of PMR to reinforce relaxation and replace the interruption. Any thoughts, do please share.

Afterwards, she commented on not feeling as deep. We talked about her still enjoying the whole thing and not faking it. She still felt compelled to act throughout, but something wasn't quite right for her. Should we have reset?

Timing is the issue, particularly on a week night.

After induction I gave her a new instruction that would put her to sleep: a tap on the forehead. Which came to work very nicely during the session. Next time I intend on reinforcing ideas of going deeper each time - I think I need to reinforce triggers and commands more throughout. Watching other tists across the Internet, they have perfected the patter, if somewhat sounding bored... should I sound bored?

My ADHD brain is bubbling with moving forward and I struggle with the repetition (because I've done that and want to move on)

With the forehead tap in place, I reestablished the amnesia during the session with the trigger Eclipse - again, the session might have benefited from use of that, and again if I'd laboured the idea of going deeper each time I used it.

There's so much admin to do! It's like commenting in programming code. You've got to do it or else you'll get you or her lost, but it's so low dopamine.

I moved onto mesmeric eyes, suggesting that when we locked eyes she would fall under my spell and her willpower would wane, but I then needed to establish a contrasting situation that would enable me to test it and we were short on time and I had other ideas to set up.

I was hoping to move her onto a sense of lacking self control through suggesting intoxication. We had a discussion on drug use but it turned out that her historical use at uni wasn't conducive to effective hypnosis or sex as weed had only ever made her giggly and tired. Not the mood I wanted.

We eclipsed that and moved onto her collar. I tried to work hard on establishing the potency of her collar to strip away resistance and quell her freedom of thought. This worked well later.

I want to work on associating mindlessness or emptiness to the collar going on but at this point I'd been having thoughts about it being secured and her being unable to take it off... and then that touching it would lead to a shock.

She couldn't remove it. Yay!

The shock was a damp squib.

Under reinforcement a couple of times she felt pins and needles or a tingling in her fingers. But, I'd told her she'd feel it in her throat and her pussy and I'd attempted to describe the sensations. But no dice.

I moved on, perhaps when I should have set up a desire to go somewhere - bathroom maybe - but that she couldn't go till she removed the collar.

I worked on trying to create some kind of neural link between her lips and her pussy - the "Pink Highway". She's hoping this will develop over time but as I started rubbing her lips she was more concerned that I was going to dry them out.

Eclipse! And moving on.

The next one felt great. It was a double instruction: 1) a desperate fascination with my cock (this has worked well by building up her interest and desire in oral fixation) 2) everytime she deep throated and choked, she would fall into sleep, or pass out and that this would create a frustration in her.

Initially, we did this upright with her in the chair. But I added 3) a growing sexual aggressiveness to get my cock.

She said afterwards that she didn't feel more confident, but from my perspective she was fully engaged in taking control of her desire.

I moved back and laid on the bed and shape came for me, sucking desperately away.

She is finding her voice in this too, moans increasing.

But the passing out continued. She later said that she was concerned, because I was now on my back, that she would inpale herself and I was aware that her sleep moments came with some concerted efforts to shift her body so that this didn't happen.

She has said that she was increasingly frustrated by the sleep moments and it worked well for me.

I paused the fun then gave her instructions that she had come for a bondage photoshoot and would be turned on by being photographed.

This was a moment she recounted as being more aware but still she was compelled to agree and do it, and she enjoyed it.

I put her in breast bondage, handcuffed her, popped a ball gag in and then a rubber exercise band over her mouth, tied in place.

She began to move and moan with exuberance.

Which was hot and the photos are an erotic addition to my private spankbank.

I then moved us into the final phase of the session, reminding her of her desperation for my cock in her mouth, which was now impossible with her doubly gagged. She was as frustrated as I'd suggested and her aroused moaning kept me hard.

I tapped her, set her on her knees over the edge of the bed, stripped the previous instructions and set her up as kidnapped and unwilling but suddenly realising I was there to fuck her.

She'd mentioned for the first time that she was interested in bratting so this was a great opportunity to try it.

She reports that while she begged and struggled, that there wasn't much going on in her head. Midway through I forced the collar back on her and this subdued her responses while I initiated sex.

We've tried to unpick this but, as you can see, we tried a lot of stuff and so she's hazy.

In instructed her then to get on the bed, told her she couldn't breathe until she came and fucked her.

She didn't cum, because of an annoying interruption. Can you guess who that was? Just when she was edging.

So that was gone.

I gave her a cursory wakener and we tidied up, ready to head downstairs and bash some heads.

So, a mixed bag. But mostly positive.

Midweek shenanigans (a word we should all be using more of) needs to be tighter and more focussed, leaving longer sessions and explorations for the weekend.

She has, inbetween adulting moments, said that she too feels like this is bringing us closer together and making her desire me more.

My mask is helping also to enhance her love of my eyes. So, more work to do there in using them for power and control moments. Maybe, as part of brat dynamics, she can choose not to follow instructions but when I issue them whilst locking eyes with her, she is compelled, even if she says no.

More to follow.